Senior year will be the death of me!

Ahhhh! I can’t believe it’s almost December… Senior year is almost over:(

I just want time to slow down so I can breathe. Senior year is so stressful: there’s all these tests that we have to take to prove we’re smart enough to get into a smarty pants school, big ass projects that have nothing to do with anything, homework out the wazoo, College aplications that take forever to do, and a bunch of other crap that I’m too sleep deprived to think of. In the midst of all this, I’m trying to have a life!

Yeah, that’s right; A LIFE! It’s senior year I feel like now is the time to be crazy and do all the stuff I was scared to do for the past three years. Two weeks ago I went to a midnight movie with a friend and I didnt tell my parents…ohhh rebel. TYeah I felt like uch a badass but of course I got in trouble and couldnt go out for a week. However, they better get used to it because this is just the begining.

Everyone expects us to know what we want to do with our lives and have all these goal laid out. For what? I want to go where ever the wind blows me! Lately that wind is pushing me in the California direction. I live in a small town and believe me; I dont want to stay here. I want to do big things but everyone thinks that college is it. I don’t think so. College gets you a paycheck and a free ticket to be safe. I dont want to be safe. I’ve been safe for so long and I can’t take it anymore. That’s why I’m working my butt off trying to get a scholarship to a school in L.A. My mom wants me to go to college. Well, I litterally ( ok, more like figuratively) have no choice other then death. I however, want to be a famous singer/ actress/ writer/ humanitarian/ cheerleading team owner! Yeah, its alot but it’s what I want to do with my life.

You guys, I would type more but, lunch at my school is almost over and I had to get this off my chest before I go back to class. All I can say is: live for you and don’t mistake other people’s happiness for your own!

Thanks for reading, stay lovely!